I have struggled with depression for years, and I have even attempted suicide once. However, when it didn't work the first time I had this feeling that I didn't want my life to be wasted. I didn't know how much longer I could hold on, but I knew that however long that was, I would want to have done at least some good with my life. So I started helping other people who are feeling the same way. I still deal with depression, but when someone writes or talks to me, and I manage to help them, things don't seem that bad. When people tell me that I have saved their lives, I feel like maybe, just maybe, my life has a purpose, and suddenly I don't feel depressed anymore, even if just for a little while. Is that normal?

I don't know your age, but it might be a calling to take a course in something like " social worker", to continue your work as a helper here on earth! You would make a lot of people happy and at the same time it would give you a sense of achievement and happiness as well!
Good job and keep up the good work! I am proud of you!