Due to the fact that I speak 3 fluent languages, Japanese, Chinese and English since I lived half my life in Japan and Australia (my blood is Chinese). My train of thoughts are messed up, I can't express myself well in English, Chinese nor Japanese sometimes. My parents taught me Chinese so I could communicate with my grandparents. Japanese and English I learnt them at school, but because I left Japan at a young age and also I don't speak Japanese much at home. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that I learnt my 3 languages half assedly so I don't have a main language, so I can't express myself well sometimes because I think in 3 different languages and I sometimes lack the vocab with particular language, resulting in Chinese people thinking I am slow or stupid, Japanese people too, and even people who speaks English and I get underestimated. It sure is hard being a Trilingual.