I really like to watch people desperate to pee and wetting themselves, but I do NOT like the typical pee fetish stuff. I also like people getting desperate and then wetting themselves into a diaper, and then being changed, but I am NOT an ABDL. I also like to experience with this stuff by myself but I wouldn't really enjoy it with a lover. Maybe with a partner whom I didn't know very well, but I would be too embarrassed with a boyfriend. Nobody I know knows about this and I don't want them to know. How do I get more familiar with this newfound fetish without letting it mix with the rest of my life, and above all, is this normal?!