Sometimes, I just sit and think and the more I think, I sort of, picture and plan my life, and when it gets to the death part I freak out. I can choose what I do in my life, I can choose what I do, where i go, who i talk to. But I don't get to choose how I die. And that scares me, not knowing if i will die in pain, die in joy, or even die in my sleep; is scary. How will I know when to say goodbye. Is it normal to be afraid to die?