Okay I'm 23. Still a virgin but have done everything else with 3 guys. I have never had a boyfriend. I don't necessarily want a boyfriend right now, because I am afraid actually. I guess because it's so foreign to me. I eventually want to get married and have kids though. I get infatuated with some guys, and fantasize about us together. but whenever guys ask me out or start getting close, I get weirded out.
Ever since the 7th grade I started getting "girl crushes" and idolizing certain girls thinking they were cool and popular and I wanted to be like them and be friends with them. I am not sure if I am just reading into this too much, but I feel more comfortable around girls and like their company more. I never thought of them in a sexual way though and I dont want a girlfriend.
Sometimes I think I may just be asexual. That the attractions I am feeling for both sexes are purely aesthetic, emotional, or romantic. I am confused about what I want and my sexual orientation. i don't mind giving a guy oral, but I freaked out when it was done to me. and I feel that sometimes dating and hooking up is so awkward that I avoid it at all costs.
Ever since the 7th grade I started getting "girl crushes" and idolizing certain girls thinking they were cool and popular and I wanted to be like them and be friends with them. I am not sure if I am just reading into this too much, but I feel more comfortable around girls and like their company more. I never thought of them in a sexual way though and I dont want a girlfriend.
Sometimes I think I may just be asexual. That the attractions I am feeling for both sexes are purely aesthetic, emotional, or romantic. I am confused about what I want and my sexual orientation. i don't mind giving a guy oral, but I freaked out when it was done to me. and I feel that sometimes dating and hooking up is so awkward that I avoid it at all costs.
I am 15 and I'm confused
The big thing I have learned over the past years is that: No matter what, when I fall in love things like gender, haircolor or age (not older than my father and not younger than the age of consent) will not matter.
For the part what you like or not: Listen to yourself, if you don't like doing things others consider as "normal" then just don't do it! Maybe you get comfortable over time with some things and if not ... what's the big deal?
Start slow and relax with the things you like, always remember:
Sex and all connected stuff should above all be fun, it should enrich your life!
(And age, gender, viginity or not should not matter so much.)