Seriously I feel nothing for anyone or anything!
I don't have any kind of reaction to whatever I encounter in my daily life. I just pretend in order to fit in. I pretend to be happy when I assume that i should be happy; I pretend to be sad when a friend or a family member is suffering for example, but in reality, i don't feel anything for either my friends or my family! Yes, i try to be there for them and everything, but I don't really care if they are happy or sad! I really feel like an ungrateful bitch for this!
I don't even laugh or cry anymore. Nothing scares me or comfort me. I don't care if i die or live; i don't care about the future or even the present.
This freaks me out! I don't know when or why I turned out to such a cruel emotionless person!
I don't want to be like this, so please no hateful comments!
Just tell me if you think it's normal or not, and any advice is appreciated.
I don't have any kind of reaction to whatever I encounter in my daily life. I just pretend in order to fit in. I pretend to be happy when I assume that i should be happy; I pretend to be sad when a friend or a family member is suffering for example, but in reality, i don't feel anything for either my friends or my family! Yes, i try to be there for them and everything, but I don't really care if they are happy or sad! I really feel like an ungrateful bitch for this!
I don't even laugh or cry anymore. Nothing scares me or comfort me. I don't care if i die or live; i don't care about the future or even the present.
This freaks me out! I don't know when or why I turned out to such a cruel emotionless person!
I don't want to be like this, so please no hateful comments!
Just tell me if you think it's normal or not, and any advice is appreciated.
That line shows you have some form of emotion to you, that you feel guilty to an extent.
Also, you should never pretend to feel because that just makes your situation even worse. I'm no expert so I could just be talking a load of shit here, but perhaps you forming ideas of what you "should" feel at what severity (e.g your not gonna burst into tears if you can't find your phone) has partially caused this or made it worse at the very least.
If I were you, I would visit a counsellor or your GP who can refer you to a psychiatrist/psychologist
The fact that you feel guilty and upset about this shows that you do have emotions.
It could be a disorder or it could just be your personality.
If not meds (like I said just a shot in the dark) then you might want to talk to a psychiatrist, there could be a serious reason for this, or it could be just your personality. The fact that you made this post means you care more than you think you do. If you cared nothing for others, why would you "try and be there for them and everything"?
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That being said, it's definitely a good idea to seek professional help as opposed to asking/searching online.
This sounds like a "shallow affect" certainly, but not a narc.
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