I am a 21 year old male. I have been on and off SSRI "medicine" with no positive results. The last SSRI medication I was prescribed (lexopro) really made me feel drugged. It gave me daily panic attacks and made me feel sick almost as if I was dying. I read this was normal and continued to take the meds. I was on them for about 3 months before I noticed they were making my mind more depressed than ever. I started feeling numb and more depressed than ever and was having memory and cognitive problems. Now I have been off the medicine for what I think might be a few months (I can't perceive time how I used to). There are still side effects I feel which I am hoping are not permanent. I have intense anxiety attacks, head zaps, acute depression, eye pain, blurry vision, memory loss, sexual dysfunction, back pain. I receive no pleasure from anything anymore. It's as if the SSRI has ruined my brain and bodily functions. I would like to know if anyone who has been on SSRI can tell me if this is normal. I hope I can return to my normal self in time. I cannot believe what this medicine has doneto ruin my life directly, and my family's life indirectly. It is truly depressing.