I had this boyfriend once that I liked . we stayed together for about 2 and a half years . I stayed with him for awhile . I picked a boy I thought was a reasonable male to be with he was big he was tall , he was cute, and he was loyal and I thought he would never leave me and stay by me forever I knew he could never hurt me . He was thin but had a broad body however after 2 in a half years I don’t know It was getting kind of stale and one day when he kissed me i just did not feel anything any more . I just fealt like I did not want to be touched anymore I kind of thought it was because we had a 2 year difference and maybe I grew out of it I do not know to this day , But I still loved him he was my best friend in the world . Is this weird or am I just a bad person ? I still think about how it ended and it was horrible I still regret it to this day but there was a lot of other things going on at the time other than that . Than during my junior year my school messed up and put me back in soft more classes like so many others whos classes they had ruined and I hated this . I had no friend that year and I could not make friends with anyone in my class and truthfully at that piont I just wanted friends my age I hated being stuck with kids younger than me .