I'm currently a junior in college and so far this has been the best year and worst. I literally feel like my life is a roller coaster. One day I'll be very happy and excited about life and the next I can physically feel the sadness in my face. My social life is the best it's been so far in college, and I'm making a good amount of money from the 2 jobs I work. On the other hand, I have no time to just enjoy myself and life. I'm happy with how on track I am in terms of achieving my career goals, however I just feel lost. I often feel like I need to cry but it just won't happen, and when it does I feel better for a few days but then fall back into the same feeling. I only started drinking alcohol last semester, and even then it's only been a few times. I don't go out and party, just drink every once in a while with a few close friends. I feel guilty. I know I'm not the person I used to be and I feel like I'm losing touch with myself. I feel alone as I am yet to find a person who I feel comfortable to be romantically involved with. I just feel like I'm going through the motions of everything, like a zombie. Depression runs in my family, so I feel like maybe I've gone through waves of depression. Anyone else ever feel like this?