I'm 22, I live at home, I feel like I'm responsible for keeping both parents placated. I feel like I give them attention purely in exchange for room and board, and that they know about this unspoken deal, because as soon as they find out about something they don't like (I'm looking for an apartment, I seek car repairs independent of them, I make plans with friends for Warrior Dash, I find a job in the next city over,) they become physically aggressive and verbally abusive, they turn on a dime. It's like a horror movie to see their faces contort so suddenly, like they know they live in a fantasy world and they rage whenever the illusion is broken. My dad kisses me on the neck and tells me I'm overreacting when I tell him to stop. My mom comes home from work stressed out and dumps on me and hollers and screeches and chases me when I try to leave the room. They have specifically told me that I'd be abandoning the family if I leave without their involvement. I know my parents are abusive, but the thing is I really mull over how rotten they are, and I've heard you don't start any relationships until you can present your authentic self, after you get over the hurt from the previous relationship, and that makes me feel like I'm dating my parents and right now I'm going through the breakup. That, and they've been so possessive and controlling my entire life that I don't have an authentic me, it never developed. That's why it's been so hard to get myself to up and leave like I know would be good for me.