This is my first post. I am seeking help throughout the internet because some people might experience the same as I do. I am 22, live in Brazil (if there are any spelling mistakes, you know why.) and live with my mother and grandma. I am a bit shy since I was a kid, and I got a little better as the years passed. But something never changed. Everytime we have a family reunion, I feel uneasy and I don't want to go. Why? because everytime I go I feel like I don't belong there. I don't know how to talk to them, I don't know how to deal with them. When I'm there I just stay in a place, quiet, silent. People in this family must think I'm weird or something. And I know they just deal with me because I'm part of the family. But I know that they just don't care at all. Some members of my family don't like other members, but still they hug each other, and laugh and act as if they like each other. I get sick of that. Makes me want to puke. I can't cope with that fake and dissimulated behavior. I tried therapy but nothing has changed so far. If you could comment or just read this story, it would help a lot. Thanks for your time.