I feel more alone than ever... i'm in a relationship with the most wonderful man. he is the love of my life. i have friends who care for me and would take a hit for me any day... yet i feel so alone... i'm afraid to be alone with my own thoughts, half the time i think i'm mental or something. i go into a deep depression out of the blue. i cant even think, i honestly want to curl into a little ball and go in a corner and die. is it normal to feel like this? please guys, don't fuck with me on this.

It feels like I'm a bit short on information though so I can't really make a "diagnose". I don't know what you've been through or what you're like, but I can say for sure that its normal to feel alone among friends, but not when you're with the person you love or share your life with.
I don't even know if you do feel along around other people, so everything I've written might just be some text that'll do you no good. However, if you want to get to the bottom of it, I'd be happy to help.
I suggest you seek some therapy, and be open and honest with the people you are close to about it. Trying to find a way to understand and cope with your own mind is nothing to be embarrassed about. Good luck :)
I have friends,family and a boyfriend who all love me.. But I get depressed and sleep. I feel like I have no one when I have a lot of people.