I am a very needy person, and feel insecure if I'm not following someone around, yet when I'm in a group or even with one person, I find it incredibly difficult to care or concentrate on what's going on.
I can't listen hard enough to carry on a conversation -it literally tires me out!!!- and I just altogether don't understand how to make eye-contact. I actually feel irritated that people would even bother being in my presence, yet when I'm alone, I'll walk along with the first person I see.
I'm even getting distant with my very best friend, and when I get to visit her, I'm feeling guilty for not being friendlier. I even apologize for it.
Either way I feel amazingly awkward and hostile. Why??
I can't listen hard enough to carry on a conversation -it literally tires me out!!!- and I just altogether don't understand how to make eye-contact. I actually feel irritated that people would even bother being in my presence, yet when I'm alone, I'll walk along with the first person I see.
I'm even getting distant with my very best friend, and when I get to visit her, I'm feeling guilty for not being friendlier. I even apologize for it.
Either way I feel amazingly awkward and hostile. Why??

dealing with people can be a drain on our energies. its becoz wer'e basically introverted with little need for external stimuli so unnecceary conversation and small talk can be a pain.people just have to accept that introversion is not a bad quality.
It's recently happening now to people.
Some times when I speak to people, I don't like to look at their eyes, while their eyes is looking at mine.
I really don't know what to advice but find friends from Facebook or something. Get in communication with someone far away.
Also Iron Man movie is awesome:)