I hate being in the country I come from, I hate speaking their language and being around people from that country makes me feel very uncomfortable. Their food is disgusting, their culture is nonsense and they just are one of the dumbest groups of people I have ever seen in my life.
Because of that, I recently migrated to the UK which changed my life a lot for the better. But since my family still lives in that one place I unfortunately happened to be born in, I return there from time to time. But whenever I return to that country, it makes me feel sick, disgusted and angry, I even feel angry at my parents for not having moved somewhere else before I was born sometimes.
I don't even see my nationality as part of my identity, I wish I could just change it to something, anything, just because I don't want to be associated with that country in any way. When I was too young to move out on my own, I would have foreign friends only...very often racist people would insult me as a stupid foreigner but actually I took this as a compliment.
Whenever I do something that is associated with that country it makes me feel very disappointed and angry with myself, sometimes I hate myself for having been born in that place. I'm being racist against myself...
Is it normal to hate your own nationality that much? These weird feelings I'm having totally conflict with my own beliefs...I despise racism but I just can't stop feeling this way...I do not actually believe that anyone if inferior because of their nationality, ethnicity or anything...I don't want to feel this way, yet I do...is it normal?
Because of that, I recently migrated to the UK which changed my life a lot for the better. But since my family still lives in that one place I unfortunately happened to be born in, I return there from time to time. But whenever I return to that country, it makes me feel sick, disgusted and angry, I even feel angry at my parents for not having moved somewhere else before I was born sometimes.
I don't even see my nationality as part of my identity, I wish I could just change it to something, anything, just because I don't want to be associated with that country in any way. When I was too young to move out on my own, I would have foreign friends only...very often racist people would insult me as a stupid foreigner but actually I took this as a compliment.
Whenever I do something that is associated with that country it makes me feel very disappointed and angry with myself, sometimes I hate myself for having been born in that place. I'm being racist against myself...
Is it normal to hate your own nationality that much? These weird feelings I'm having totally conflict with my own beliefs...I despise racism but I just can't stop feeling this way...I do not actually believe that anyone if inferior because of their nationality, ethnicity or anything...I don't want to feel this way, yet I do...is it normal?
Parrish, you ever been there?
Meh.
I don't see eye to eye with everything American, but I'm still proud because our country has done many good things. Don't dwell on the mistakes just bask in the fortunate :D