I've been having this problem for a long time now i think I'm on the verge of fixing it but let me get straight to the point I'm weird my life has always been one adventure after another i love that I've never had a boring life i thank god i didn't grow up in one town my whole life I've moved a lot. I'm 19 I'm a teakwood instructor. but in my eyes I'm a martial artist. my master said being a martial artist is a lonely life i really took those words into play. I've always had anger problems but recently i threw away all of my possessions except my sword clothes and some blankets i sleep on the floor my room is epmty its painted all black and i just need to be more disciplined. i honestly do not try to brag cause i say this in all my post but I'm an attractive guy I'm in collage & a guy can just tell he's handsome when he has a lot of girls always sitting nes=xt to him always talking ti him.. the point is i tend to stay away from ppl I'm really not a dick but i just think life is so annoying anyone with a heartbeat annoys me is that bad? i only love my students mother and master i love my job but it turned my life completely around and i find it unfair cause theirs another instruct that still parties and has friends & another one that is just a normal looking guy with a normal life like why doesn't this job effect them why only me i feel like I'm going through a transformation but i don't want to turn into the quiet weird guy i really wish i could like ppl but i don't know my life has became just all about me and my plans i want to think outside of my mind s=does that make sense?