Okay so ive always like smoking and drinking, and recently this year ive tried ecstasy, so far ive done it about 10 times, so one day i had a really bad trip because i seen this girl, overdose and an ambulance had to come for her, and what not, and turns out she did all these drugs including x, i know its not going to happen to me, but now when ever i do any thing even just drink a couple beers, i feel deppressed or like, what am i doing this is bad, and i just dont have fun anymore is this normal?

My parents are addicts and seeing them scrape by with garbage because they have lost the desire for a better life is just sad. To make up for it, I have chosen not to do drugs in any way or manner and I am happy being sober.
Perhaps you should try it. There is nothing wrong with facing problems with a clear head and not run from them from time to time.
since 1973. The sober world is much better than having to cover for all the stupid dangerous things you do when you're not sober. An MD told me that were going to have a huge increase in Parkinsons disease after the people that use meth and cocaine get older. You are sealing your fate now if you don't stop.
Parkisons disease is an hereditary disease.
So shush.And most of the time it comes up earlier because of legal drugs use.Such as neuroleptics.
Which happen to be the drugs given to those who are experiencing some sort of mental disorder or psicosis.Whatever it's drug related or not.
I hope you realize that by repeating that nonsense to random people,you give the doctors a chance to ignore the side effects caused by the medications they give,by simply blaming it on drugs.Which,believe it or not,have different effects and different ways to act on the mental and phisical health of a person. SO Saying:
Drug usage leads to an increase in cases of parkinsons,without even specifing which ones, Is BOGUS.The usual anti drug propaganda for those who don't even wanna bother understanding how things actually work.That being said.
Next time,check your sources.
Now,after witnessing that event You associate fear of death or other bad consequences to drugs and alcohol.And by the look of it all..I'd say it's gonna get worse until you just need the drugs to "be yourself" rather than get high and "raise hell",I think you are starting to lack the ability to feel pleasure doing the only thing that made you have fun.Doing drugs,drink alcohol,and whatever comes next is gonna be more or less enjoyable depending on the thoughts and emotions going through your mind while you do the drugs and/or drink the alcohol.What You are getting is anxiety. You are afraid of ending up in an hospital bed,having to give explanations to medical personnel and ultimately your parents and relatives,who would probably be very upset at you for being such a careless lousy drug addict fool and what not.And that is,understandable.But feeling that bad about it? Totally exaggerated.If you don't have fun anymore,just game over. You can't possibly erase your own memory just so you can keep on enjoying your drugs and parties.And even if you could,it would reach an end anyway.So,before you develop some sort of drug induced mental illness,if you haven't already,which is my guess,get your shit together and deal with it.
And know,that you'll always be remembering "that time when your friend felt sick after taking drugs and almost died".It's normal but you have to deal with it asap.It's not in my intentions to scare you further but,you know,you got yourself in this mess and you take yourself out of it.You are not feeling "depressed" you are sad because your mind keeps going back to that moment.And you can't help it to feel at least partially responsible for what happened.So,take yourself out of the drug environment,go somewhere,where you can't find any,if you'd rather kick the stuff than keep taking it and feel the way you do.Otherwise do what most people do after events like that one,get over it,and take your chances.Worse scenario:you become yet another statistic of drugs misuse.
You are obviously not enjoying yourself like you used to & realising this is the first step to a drug-free life.
Don't be scared to have a drink or two (but don't go CRAZY) but at least get off the hard stuff, even marijuana.
I used for 10 years (been clean for 2) & best thing I done was giving up. Wish I gave up a lot sooner ( no regrets about doing it, it's made me who I am, just let it go on for too long)
If you can go without drink too, all the better...
& don't ever think you CAN'T or you WON'T OD...
I guarantee that's what most people think not long before they fry!
Don't get me wrong I don't mind a drink or two & we're all welcome to our opinion but get your facts straight before you tell people what is & isn't dangerous
For shag sake you people are so lame.You realize that things like these can happen only because people are forced to use those substance out of a controlled environment? Just to have "fun"?No.Drugs are bad.They cause severe illnesses.Period.that's all they have to say.Well so does aspirin.So does the majority of over the counter meds!Dh!