I've always been finicky when it comes to friends. I thought of them as replaceable or even disposable. If someone suddenly lost interest, so did I. I used to believe that I honestly did not need any--that I was perfectly fine by myself or with my family. For this reason, I would go out of my way to avoid people, especially if they wanted to reconnect.
Now, I suddenly feel alone, and it doesn't feel the same way it used to feel. I feel empty inside. I see people conversing and laughing, and I long for the same thing now. However, these years of avoiding people has made me afraid to reconnect with old and/or make new friends.
Has anyone else here felt this way?
Now, I suddenly feel alone, and it doesn't feel the same way it used to feel. I feel empty inside. I see people conversing and laughing, and I long for the same thing now. However, these years of avoiding people has made me afraid to reconnect with old and/or make new friends.
Has anyone else here felt this way?
But I don't want new friends, I want DIFFERENT friends because the 'friends' I have now are assholes (excuse my language). I feel alone when I'm hanging around with them. There are a few (like one) that I feel like I can be myself around and I don't feel lonely around her, but I don't get to hang out a lot with her because she constantly moves.
I'm kind of at the point (like you) where I avoid everyone, but then a few people eventually come around and wants to hang out with me again and I have a hard time saying no.
But anyways, if you need a new friend, I'd be happy to help. :D