So I met this girl like 2 years ago in school (were both girls) , we were really close just after we met, we used to hug she used to hold my hand and even sit on my lap which made me feel weird but i felt right when i was with her i didnt care what people thought and this was before id totaly come out about being bisexual then about a year ago everything went down hill you see my other friend asked her out for me she rejected me after 2 weeks saying that she knew from the start but i guess she didnt no how to say it, but i mean after all that i still think i love her and i miss her alot is that normal?

Ok. I'm done.
It sounds like she had some urges - I mean sitting on your lap? - but when it came to admitting to them, she got scared and decided she didn't want it after all.