So i have a fantasy of having an abusive girlfriend , i am a female by the way , you know how nice girls like bad boys ? , i like bad girls or women , anyways i fantasize about a bad girlfriend being bad to me , like cursing me ,doing sexual things when i don't want to , or hitting me not to an extent that i am hospitilized but a small bruise or slap or whatever . Am i a masochistic ? , IIN to want an abusive girlfriend ?

I think it's normal, many people are into that. I certainly wouldn't want a girlfriend like that though.
But I definitely wouldn't want someone who is unpredictable and someone I'm possibly scared of on occasion.. definitely not for me.