Im only 19 yrs old and I have seen, been through, learned..ect way to much and to bad for being so young. I have been through so much pain since I was 2yrs that I dont think I can take it anymore. I've lost 2 brothers, one a shot to the head, the other died in his sleep. Igrew up in the hood.. some call it the ghetto. Been surronded by drugs.. I've known every thing and I mean EVERYTHING. I have tried some (vics, perks, oxy, pot, liquar) But I know of it all. I was malested by my uncle when I was 2 1/2. He was never arrested cuz it was my dads brother and he didnt want that. Now my uncle is living for free in one of my dads houses right next door. My family is so reckless, they call me names such as bitch, cunt, peice of shit.. and a lot worse. I dropped outta school cuz of probation for truency. I am very smart but when i tried to go back I had no help. My family didnt want to leave the house. Well basically everyday I wake up wishing that I never would again, and every night I go to sleep crying and praying that I would die in some freak accident. Is it normal to hate myself and my life soo much.. to be alive anymore cuz of it?