me and my family went away for a holiday brake , and my cousin came along hes 14 and a boy , we are close and have been since we were little but after this holiday my feelings for him grown stronger and deeper , i know that its not normal because i dont want to feel these feelings but they wont go away , i feel sick fancying my own relation but i just cant help it and im trying my best to avoid it. is it right, plz give me som advice!!!