I had a crush on the same guy through all 4 years of high school. To be honest I still kind of do, even 3 years since I've seen him last. I'm not sure how obvious it was, but I never told him because he always had some girlfriend or other and I was too shy anyway. We had some classes together and he was always really friendly and nice to me, but we never talked much.
The thing is, I was extremely obsessed with him. I drew pictures of us together, wrote stories and poems about him, had dreams about him, constantly fantasized about him. I found out which halls he walked down at school during which parts of the day so I could make our paths cross and get to see him. Eventually we were friends on MySpace and I had my "top friends" list set to private so I could have him on it and see when he was online. I read everything he wrote on there, every comment someone left him, looked through his friends list, not to mention I was on his page re-reading it and staring at his pictures multiple times a day. Eventually I printed off a picture of him and some blogs he wrote and kept them in a secret folder in my room. I wrote love letters that I never intended to give him. I kissed his pictures in my yearbooks. I tried to become interested in the things he was interested in. Basically my entire life was consumed by my obsession with him and I had myself completely convinced that I was in love with him and we were soul mates who were meant to be together someday, all that kind of sappy BS.
Now that I am older and I don't do these things anymore, I am really embarrassed about them. Was this normal teenage girl with a crush behavior or was it creepy stalker behavior? Should I be ashamed or just laugh it off?
The thing is, I was extremely obsessed with him. I drew pictures of us together, wrote stories and poems about him, had dreams about him, constantly fantasized about him. I found out which halls he walked down at school during which parts of the day so I could make our paths cross and get to see him. Eventually we were friends on MySpace and I had my "top friends" list set to private so I could have him on it and see when he was online. I read everything he wrote on there, every comment someone left him, looked through his friends list, not to mention I was on his page re-reading it and staring at his pictures multiple times a day. Eventually I printed off a picture of him and some blogs he wrote and kept them in a secret folder in my room. I wrote love letters that I never intended to give him. I kissed his pictures in my yearbooks. I tried to become interested in the things he was interested in. Basically my entire life was consumed by my obsession with him and I had myself completely convinced that I was in love with him and we were soul mates who were meant to be together someday, all that kind of sappy BS.
Now that I am older and I don't do these things anymore, I am really embarrassed about them. Was this normal teenage girl with a crush behavior or was it creepy stalker behavior? Should I be ashamed or just laugh it off?
When I think of a stalker I think of someone following their crush home. Calling their house phone all hours of the night and hanging up. That sorta thing. You were just a teenage girl who had a huge crush on a boy and it became infatuation. Don't worry about it.
In high school I had a crush on a guy too. And he made me go nuts for him. I wouldn't follow him or anything like that. But Whenever he came online I'd be Instant messaging him any chance I got.
We all go through it. We all get our crushes here and there, just know when to take it down a notch. You're older now, so you've probably matured since then. Its in the past. Don't worry.
Anyway I think there is a difference between a celebrity and someone you actually know. You know? Not that I think it's excusable to creep on celebrities either, it's just a whole different relationship because they are:
a) Unattainable.
b) Famous. It comes with the territory. They know people print out their pictures.
the only difference is that you didn't attack him but... yeah as an adult you can get in trouble for stuff like that depending on how far you take it