IIN that I feel lost, No I am lost and completely disconnected for the human race.
I'm 19 male I have no direction and never have I did have some goals but they feel hollow to me now, one was to be a millionaire i know a lot of people want to be rich but do they ever try I've spent a lot of my time thinking and trying things out - I now have a small business selling niche market products online (i make fuck all and hate it).
The other thing is I want a girl friend but this isn't going to happen I'm so self conscience and more then shy - I'm starting to think I have a social phobia plus I don't have a car or licence, job, life..... any people skills or anything in common with anybody.
All my friends who I like have left the country/island and one of them probably doesn't like me any more because I didn't go to his leaving party (because of the phobia and I don't drink which makes party's hard for me.)
More info....... I go to sleep at 4am-5am in the morning (it's 4.14am now) get up a 11am-3pm listen to music,eat lunch, go on the internet, more music, eat tea, watch C4 music channel or a movie), lift weights (I've just started this), lie in bed for anywhere between 1-4 hours trying to get to sleep and then repeat. Sad huh
and I get depressed because all of above is my own fault and i now have no will power to change so I'm fucked I wish I could just leave and go do something fun for once in my life
just realised I sort of trailed off there sorry and it is quite long and for which I am also sorry.
Any comments/ideas will be great...
I'm 19 male I have no direction and never have I did have some goals but they feel hollow to me now, one was to be a millionaire i know a lot of people want to be rich but do they ever try I've spent a lot of my time thinking and trying things out - I now have a small business selling niche market products online (i make fuck all and hate it).
The other thing is I want a girl friend but this isn't going to happen I'm so self conscience and more then shy - I'm starting to think I have a social phobia plus I don't have a car or licence, job, life..... any people skills or anything in common with anybody.
All my friends who I like have left the country/island and one of them probably doesn't like me any more because I didn't go to his leaving party (because of the phobia and I don't drink which makes party's hard for me.)
More info....... I go to sleep at 4am-5am in the morning (it's 4.14am now) get up a 11am-3pm listen to music,eat lunch, go on the internet, more music, eat tea, watch C4 music channel or a movie), lift weights (I've just started this), lie in bed for anywhere between 1-4 hours trying to get to sleep and then repeat. Sad huh
and I get depressed because all of above is my own fault and i now have no will power to change so I'm fucked I wish I could just leave and go do something fun for once in my life
just realised I sort of trailed off there sorry and it is quite long and for which I am also sorry.
Any comments/ideas will be great...
Count on it!
Many, many people your age are in the same boat as you (in North America especially). The media influence throughout your childhood, and the narcissistic parenting of the children of the Baby Boomers, has totally fucked up your generation. You are not alone.
You just told us what you are not good at or what you don't have. What are you good at? what do you have?
Just take a better look in you skills, I'm sure you'll find something worth working on...
So stop feeling sorry for yourself! The working out should help your self esteem though, it builds muscle as well as character(: let me sing you. A song I absolutely love (even though this is over text and u can't hear the rythym). " I met a man of 2 ft tall, he was quite ambitious, in a world that is so vicious to us all, I'll say hi, as he replied, he sed listen to these words that I have lived by my whole life! You're only as TALL, as ur heart will LET you be, and you're only as small, as the world will make u seem, and when the going gets rough, and you feel like u may fall, just look on the brightside, you're roughly six feet tall! " good luck !!(: