All I can think about is how people are just born, thrust into the world, and all life is is us trying to make sense of the universe. Everything we do, eat, our culture, customs, everything we are, somewhere along the line someone just decided that this was how it was going to be and now that's how it is and we don't even question it. I'm going insane just thinking, why, why why?
If you can, take some college philosophy classes. People have been wondering about this stuff for thousands of years, and some of what they have to say is enlightening.
Remember that most of the matter in the universe never gets to be conscience at all, so enjoy what you have and make the most of time you have left.
From then on, you will feel like a million dollars.
Then I start thinking like it again about something else.
There are days that I've figured out the universe.
lol, it's normal
I suggest you do some reading on the base chakra...look at different sites about it. Good luck.
I think we are naturally inclined to ask these questions because they have answers. It is almost like a need, we are hungry so we seek food. We are tired, so we seek rest/sleep.
Think about it have you ever needed something that was not in reality possible.
I think these questions about meaning, and truth are our way of seeking God. The questions you have are pivotal, and the answer to truth must be the ultimate reality, that could only be God.
That is the conclusion I came to, your question only reinforces that, because I often wonder if other people think about these mind shattering questions.
Just relax though, your not in any danger. Once you have the proper mental resources you will be able to handle these things. Such as before you knew what algebra was and you were asked what 2x 3-y (9)= 36 or whatever....you dig lol.
1. jerk off -all u need are some tissues maybe some lotion
2. get one of those blow up dolls trust me they are fun.
3.porn is always a good old mind sweeper try it