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really, am i normal?
okay.
i feel that i have a ton of things about me that don't fit for my age(16), gender(female), or upbringing(safe, protected, christian household).
first of all, i'm highly sexually aware for someone with only minor sexual encounters. i'm a virgin, only having encountered a little bit of fooling around with another girl.
however, i masturbate 5+ times a day to almost anything. i can pretty much find anything sexually stimulating. rape, torture, humiliation, bondage, beastiality, necrophilia, domination, watersports, choking, hair-pulling, etc.
but enough of that.
i also have major body image problems. i've been consistently losing weight over the past month due to not eating or eating very little, however, when i look in the mirror, i see myself as the same weight i was a year or two ago(fat). i have relationship problems because i feel that no one will ever be attracted to me, even though everyone tells me how pretty and attractive i am(not vain, just being honest). i don't see it. i am constently comparing myself to other women and girls, thinking "why am i not that weight? what am i doing wrong?" and it completely ruins my life.
i also have a huge gender problem.
although i am mostly attracted to men, i constantly think about how much better my life would have been if i had been born a guy. i even practice peeing standing up.
i just know that i could have grown up much happier and at ease had i been a boy.
i am a compulsive liar.
i'm uncomfortable unless i am picking or tearing at some area of my body(scabs, fingertips, bottom of feet).
i am a mysogynist, and a misanthropist for the most part.
i have anger problems, and often physically abuse others.
i find it difficult to be around the same person for a long time, otherwise their character traits begin to annoy me.
if someone who finds me attractive and is chasing after me does not meet my standards, i will ruthlessly shove them back.
i am obsessed with body hair, and need every unnecessary area shaved.
i have jealousy problems with people who are more attractive that me, and often that runs my life.
i believe in conspiracy theories to the point of insanity.
i think that's it. maybe there's more.
i feel that i have a ton of things about me that don't fit for my age(16), gender(female), or upbringing(safe, protected, christian household).
first of all, i'm highly sexually aware for someone with only minor sexual encounters. i'm a virgin, only having encountered a little bit of fooling around with another girl.
however, i masturbate 5+ times a day to almost anything. i can pretty much find anything sexually stimulating. rape, torture, humiliation, bondage, beastiality, necrophilia, domination, watersports, choking, hair-pulling, etc.
but enough of that.
i also have major body image problems. i've been consistently losing weight over the past month due to not eating or eating very little, however, when i look in the mirror, i see myself as the same weight i was a year or two ago(fat). i have relationship problems because i feel that no one will ever be attracted to me, even though everyone tells me how pretty and attractive i am(not vain, just being honest). i don't see it. i am constently comparing myself to other women and girls, thinking "why am i not that weight? what am i doing wrong?" and it completely ruins my life.
i also have a huge gender problem.
although i am mostly attracted to men, i constantly think about how much better my life would have been if i had been born a guy. i even practice peeing standing up.
i just know that i could have grown up much happier and at ease had i been a boy.
i am a compulsive liar.
i'm uncomfortable unless i am picking or tearing at some area of my body(scabs, fingertips, bottom of feet).
i am a mysogynist, and a misanthropist for the most part.
i have anger problems, and often physically abuse others.
i find it difficult to be around the same person for a long time, otherwise their character traits begin to annoy me.
if someone who finds me attractive and is chasing after me does not meet my standards, i will ruthlessly shove them back.
i am obsessed with body hair, and need every unnecessary area shaved.
i have jealousy problems with people who are more attractive that me, and often that runs my life.
i believe in conspiracy theories to the point of insanity.
i think that's it. maybe there's more.
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stop them thoughts grow out of them. how much do you weight? and if your so pretty uno whats your problem. do you get bullied or have you been bullied? stop these thoughts just stop it change your whole attitude to life. because if i kenw you i wouldnt be your friend and im a guy btw and if i was chasing you because i wanted you and you shoved me away i would go crazy. you sound like this girl i no shes a 110% attention seeker.
like you want everyone to feel sorry for you
but you need to change your whole attitude to everything. people are telling you your pretty take there word stop the weight loss thing or youlll be to skinny an no one will find you attractive.
believe me the masturbating thing isnt a problem but the peeing standing up and acting like a boy is a little wierd and the anger problems, lieing coanstantly, and abusing people is wrong if you were like that to me id fukin twat you no matter if you were a girl but you do have a alot of problems there must be something in the center of these problems what is it that is causing most of this pain ask yourself is it the fat thing the ugly thing if it is you need to sort yourself out boys are chasing you must have alot of friends and if not well but you cant be that ugly from whta youve said just stop it sort it out.
no wonder you dont have a boyfriend.
and as to wishing you were a boy, your not just get over it.. your never gona be a boy. so just be happy with yourself
and tbh i dont think your the only person in the world who is concerned about the way they look
i get jelous of people who are more attractive, because i dont think im attractive what so ever. Iv had quite few boyfriends but then i always end the relationship not long after because i always feel like they are messing about an they dont really like me and its all just a joke.
But im learning to like myself now because i know there is nothing i can do to change the way i am. even if i change how i look i will always be the same person inside
just get used to it.
everyone finds someone who likes them for who they are. they dont care what you look like, its whats inside that counts. you just havnt found that person yet. an im sure you will soon.
the most attractive thing about a person is confidence. SO BE CONFIDENT ABOUT YOURSELF
That or get a sex change that is always fun.
Tell me if I am wrong.