Something is happening to me..

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Hi there , I am not here to judge
I am here to give serious imput towards
your question here ..
You may have what is called "Identity
Gender Disorder" something of that source
Where you don't know what you want to be . Yes, I am a attention seeker , I make
up lies of imaginary girlfriends that do
not exist , I do it to make myself feel
better plus try to get girls that I want
to be with , When, I know well that they
want no more than friendship.
I do not classify myself as a pedophile cause I do not see young
children attractive ..
Yes, i am dying to be LOVED but it
I do not see anything coming out of
my wish !! Sometimes , I aks myself
Why, does GOD let me live , And go on
when I can't find LOVE.
Life without a female to LOVE to me
is like , Why, not give me the death
penalty!! So i do know how you feel
Yes, growing up I never had my teen
years .. I never had that teen girlfriend
at the age of 15 to ?
I am 39 years old almost 40 years old
I will always want , A girl that is
between the age 18 to 30 , Yes, when
she is older I would still want to
be with the same girl , No, I am not
a cheater And I am not a FREAK!!
But, I know your emotional pain
I hope GOD places PEACE with inside your
heart !!

God Bless You,

A Great Guy that Cares

Right now, I am in LOVE with my CaseManager , She is 29 years old ..She
has been so kind to me .. Often I feel
very addicted to her And Obessed with her , I know she is getting married
So before the wedding , I am bailing out And unfortanetley I will loose the
services that she renders me such as
Transportation , I am bailing out cause
I want the emotional rolly coaster pain
to go away for good !!
She is marrying a real immature 41 year
old male , Who she says, He needs to
grow up ... I went in prayer over this
today .. I want CHRIST to bring me SALVATION!!! I know , I got to do this And it will be a BIG impact on her cause She has really picked me as
her favorite client !!
But , I got to do it , I can't stop
fighting the tears anymore !!
I have ask her out , when, she was
single And we went to breakfast this
one day ..Well, she said to me, Is it
okay if I would call you more often
I said sure , Well, in the mean time
I got upset , cause She wouldn't allow
me to pay for her breakfast that I
put a block on my phone line ...
So you see , I am also to blame
She had placed the ball in my court
one day , When , she wanted me to ask
her out ..Being soo shy , It never happened!!
So yes, I know your emotional pain!!

Everyone questions themselves over one thing or another from time you time, you really shouldent over think, you sound like your an inch from a meltdown if you keep that pace, try and mellowing out, and then talk to someone :)




peace JAH bless

a lot of posters in here have the same thing.the only cure is growing up some and sometimes that doesnt even cure some people.

sex and the city

do you even know what gender identity disorder is or do you just like to hear yourself type?

You seem to be normal. Whatever you do, DO NOT try to self diagnose ANY psychological condition using a list of symptoms! There is a well known illusion that makes you think you have whatever disease the list is describing. If you see a shrink they will be able to tell you if you're nuts or not.

if u wanna talk to you i have a profile at you tube my profile is Shadow100004

pls i wanna be friend... with u
i wanna get to know u :)
since im really shy to talk to people on "real like" heres where i open my self up...

OMG!!! this was very scary and disturbing to read only because while reading it i realized that i have those same thoughts and never thought for once that it was even out of the norm to be thinking like that. I am a 20 year old gay black male, DAMN! black and gay??!!, I know, and i have always thought that i was a little croocked in the head, but totally oblivious to the fact. I mean i think of random things to entertain myself completely zoneing out lost in my thoughts, i always imagine apocolyptic events and enjoy playing them out, i look forward to the next global tragedy and am sometimes unresponsive in shocking moments like a death or scary moment in a horror movie, i love horror movies, but also i think of horrible things happening to people and howi can benefit from it, i plan crimes and murders in my head, with never the intent to do them, but just imagine how i would get out of the situation. I am not a pedophile, and have no desire to ahve sex with children at all, and actually find it discusting, sad, and it kind hurts my feelings, but do admire some childrens features or predict that will be very attractive when they become older. I dont know who i really am, i have several different personalites, they all have the same name, look the same but they are different people, one is more intellegent then the other, less talented then each, or skillfull in differen task then each other, i ahve no control over them and dont even notice the change,they talk differently and think differently and come out diffrent times for different lengths of time, one could be out for 2 mintes and another for 2 days. I do things for attention some times, and at others do everything in my power to not attract attention, or even try to pretend that i dont exist. Its very complicated but sorts its self out perfectly except at sometimes when i feel a different emotion suddenly, I would feel angry as if i wanted to shout, would feel that burst but not do anyhing, its strange and scary, i kinda relate to you, and would like to think you for helping me in to realization my self. i think its serious and we should both seek help, but i dont hinkt i will let my self do it, i will brush this off tomorrow as if it were nothing or completely erase this thought or even personality al together.