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something isn't right inside my head..?!
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not sure what is wrong and i don't know where to go to vent. a few weeks ago i stumbled across a website that has all sorts of gruesome pictures and videos. i looked at and watched many of them.. i watched a solder being executed with a knife and being beheaded. the video was very graphic and of a pretty good quality for something you find online. seeing it didn't phase me in the least. i also saw a clip of a muslim woman being stoned to death. again not really phased by it. seeing the cinder block being thrown repeatedly at her head as she lay on the ground after being beaten was very vivid but it didn't phase me. there was also a clip of someone killing a cat by pouring gas on it while it was in a cage and lighting the animal on fire. i read the video description and felt sick and i could not even dream of watching that clip so i closed the browser window and i have not been back to that site since. i woke up that night in a panic. it was not that the videos and pictures that i saw did anything to bother me, but i was scared and terrified that i had no reaction to them, but the description of the animal being tortured made me feel sick. now weeks later i still am bothered by the fact that i didn't react to the video of 2 human beings being killed.

something really not right inside my head.
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tornwithin (18040)
2009-02-10 14:04:15
wtf dude i cant even hear of someone or something being hurt i gota plug my ears cuz i get sooo scared and worry constantly about it.. i wish i didnt care so much cuz my bf thinks its funny when ppl get beat up or sumin or those crazy websites.. ick i couldnt look at it i just pretended i was in a happy place lol but ya thats weird i am totally dif so i have no idea whats wrong with u or if there is sumin wrong? hmm ask a good friend maybe?
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qwertycrazy (21025)
2009-03-17 15:49:38
I think you're expressing your unhapiness by being disturbed at your nonchalance. Maybe they didn't have a direct effect on you but unconsciously they are taking a toll on you because you're unhappy weeks later.

Don't be concerned with the fact that the clips didn't bother you so much though. Their is a high probability that because they don't directly affect you or a friend they don't really bother you.
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Danny0692 (21692)
2009-04-08 12:17:51
thats weird, i seeen a site like that called areyouoffended.com and it was full of them, people being hanged and stuff. i don't know why i looked at the pictures and watched the clips, it was just grusome curiosity. i wasn't phased, i feel immune to feeling bad for someone being crushed to death or something, i don't feel fucked up, my friend was the same, i feel its just ignoring our emotions, your just worrying about your ignorance
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antchris (22537)
2009-04-30 22:51:36
I have viewed some disturbing images (in books/manuals) - I had to because of the line of work I do, and I guess from what I have seen in real life equivalent I have became very much desensitized - it took a long time initially but now I feel I do not become personally emotionally involved. One thing I hope might help you is from my own experience the image becomes less vivid as time goes on, perhaps try not to revisit this site or similar ones.
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kittenlover (27086)
2009-08-14 01:32:32
If you were offended by the animal cruelty that is a good sign most serial killers start by torturing animals
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anabolic19 (25748)
2009-09-09 19:21:06
im the same i see people get hit by cars being stabed and it dosnt fase me atall i mean when im pissed off theres nothing i like more than to hit some one i have absolutly no empathy for humans when i was a child i seen a homeless man get hit by a car and he got hit hard he split all his head open blood pouring out everywhere and i laughed at him
but the second i see an animal getting hurt its diferent i cant take it i get really angry and want to hurt the person doing it i cant even see and animal on a film get hurt
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FlatfootFlookie (29453)
2009-10-06 20:01:16
There are a lot of horrible things going on all the time, and it's hard telling what to make of it or how to react to it all.

All of these things must have made some sort of impression on you whether it's apparent to you now or not.

Maybe when you read about such atrocities in the newspapers from now on, you'll feel more sympathy for the victims.

For now, I suggest that you put them out of your mind and focus on the millions of positive, pleasant things the world has to offer.
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kaoshavoc (29495)
2009-10-07 18:34:43
I think when you watched the people that you did not react because you did not know how to react. Sometimes the brain stops reacting and just waits, and then will process it later. The cat you could react to because it was a bit more removed from humans. The cat may have been the catalyst that helped you actually react faster and that is why you woke up that night. It is kind of interesting in a way how the human brain can obscure things until later to protect itself from emotional overload.
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Malfoy (29225)
2009-10-11 04:59:12
You aren't sick. Many, many people aren't too disgusted by those things, they just say they are to fit in. Maybe some people here are doing just that.
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somethingsimilar (29883)
2009-10-27 05:33:40
I'm the same. In the movie 'untraceable' I could never watch the part where the kitten gets killed but I'm fine with the brutal murders of all the people. I think it's because we see and know animals to be innocent and undeserving of such cruel deaths. When humans, on the other hand, or horrible disgusting creatures. We have a natural instinct to hate our own species, for whatever reason. Really, all we do if make shit and then run around and kill each other with it. >>
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therandomdude10 (31018)
2009-11-11 04:40:47
DON'T GO TO THOSE WEBSITES!!!! THEY'RE SERIOUSLY DISGUSTING AND FUCKED UP!!! GET A LIFE AND STOP WATCHING CREEPY SHIT LIKE THAT!
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