Yes, as the title suggests, I strongly and firmly believe sometimes that I am some form of a prophet. Yes, strange, I know, but true in every way. What kind of prophet?
I believe that I will be perhaps just one in a humanity-altering event some day in the near future. I believe that I will revolutionize humanity into a higher and penultimate form that will culminate in a utopian society where we live in absolute and utter harmony.
Why do I have these thoughts? Well, to elaborate every reason would take me quite a while and more time than I currently have to type this, yet it all has to do with my ideals, which in my eyes are revolutionary.
So yes, they're just thoughts and possibilites, yet I believe them sometimes. What do you think?
Of the 6 billion people on earth, the chance for one to be able to achieve this is ridiculously small. Also, to be able to raise the whole human population behind you under one universally greater idea, is practically impossible, with today's diversity, beliefs, and ignorance. To become the epitome of humanity may be a bit much to say to oneself.
However, I accept that I'm not going to convince you of that, but I would suggest you go out and try to change the world in little ways (for example, you're the feminist wan if I remember correctly, so maybe go out and be an active member of a womans rights group if you aren't already? Or maybe stand for government?) and don't waste too much of your time waiting for your part this humanity altering event you speak of. By all means, do what you can to change things on a larger scale as well if you want to, but you don't want to wake up one day and realise you've spent your life waiting for something that's not going to happen when you could have been making things better for the people around you at a local level : )
Also, although this is unrelated to the story, it's perfectly possible to type coherently on cocaine. My brother has an addiction and holds down 2 jobs (not that I'm insinuating you do coke or anything XD)
There is a condition of brain injury that can explain this I think.
Very rare but there are people who have silent seizures (it has to be a certain part of their brain) that make them see or think of religion so much that it's absolutely real to them.
Not all seizures are physical manifestations.
Have a look into it.
I am a kindred spirit, but unlike you have not yet spoken out - simply because I'm a successful UK businessman, a CEO of a few multi-million companies.
The reason I haven't is because of the response that you have received, and the subsequent ridicule that it would attract. If any 'prophet' from any religious book walked down the street preaching in their old tongue and old ways, then they would surely receive the same treatment.
I am learning slowly over the years, and each year my view has evolved and I believe at some stage I will express my view and it is then documented for the passage of time.
I also know that I have met similar types of people, who after conversation is broached have similar feelings, though calling ourselves 'prophets' has never been broached. I have travelled to the States and most of Europe and now and again meet someone who is of similar ilk.
The feelings they all have is... I think I'm different, I can feel and question and understand things regarding humanity and other life that others can't, but I don't know what the hell it is. It's always been there and sometimes the 'magnetism' was carried out without prior thought.
Prophet? No, but I can think of a few words to describe it: Narcissist, megalomaniac, egoist... Can you imagine Ghandi or the Buddha saying something like this? they didn't "believe sometimes" they just WERE.
I mean, I've thought countless times in my lifetime that I am "the chosen one," that I ("maybe someday") will be a prophet & change the world... but REALITY CHECK - I'm just another self-centered egoist with a narcissistic personality disorder. Would I ever actually present it as a possibility to someone else? Hell no!
So yeah, you're a jackass.
later