Sometimes I am quiet and feel nothing. I could punch a baby without blinking. Other times I am alot different, energetic and funny (make alot of jokes-thinking about part-timing as a comedian). Is this normal? Also I had a F****** up childhood so that might explain it.
You have, however, taken the first step in acknowledging you have a problem. Now just take the next step and seek some help. Just take little baby steps and as always, one day at a time. Good luck.
i sometimes imagine a close relative dying and how sad i'd feel and sometimes me dying cos of all the attention i'd get.
wow i am really fucked up!