It thrills me to find so many other guys feeling the same as I. I am 56 years old and widowed. As so many of you have mentioned, I consider myself straight, am very much attracted to women, physically and romantically but ever since I was a teenager I have fantasized about having sex with another guy.
Unlike most who have posted here, I am not turned off by the thought of anal, in fact I often crave it, but I am not really into kissing, cuddling or being romantic with another man. I do not find men attractive, per se, and never give much thought to men I see on the street, etc. (the way I would if I saw an attractive woman walking by!)but when I am home, alone at my computer I get very turned on by viewing gay porn and watching two (or more!) men suck each others' cocks and fuck. I especially love close-ups of a big, hard cock in some guy's mouth or up some guy's ass and get excited by watching those cocks shoot cum onto the other guy.
As a boy I had some fleeting sexual experiences with other boys. In college I was sucked off under the partition in a toilet stall. After I came I hurriedly zipped up and ran off. Now I wish I'd had the chance to return the favor.
For me it is not that I view sucking another guy's cock (or any other male to male sexual activity) as normal -- I view it as nasty, kinky, forbidden -- and that's what makes it so hot.
I have given much thought to finding some other middle aged guy (in good shape, like me, BTW) to fool around with and have more than once placed an ad on craig's list, exchanged e-mails with guys I've met but always got scared off when a meeting was imminent. Perhaps I just want to keep my urges a fantasy. Perhaps once I start dating women again I will lose these urges. But I don't think so. They were very much with me when I was married and my beautiful wife indulged me by strapping on a dildo many a time. During our "Extra curricular sessions" as we called them, I would ask her, "Does it turn you on that you have a husband who likes to suck cock? Does it turn you on that I love to be fucked by a big hard cock?" To which she would always reply, "Oh yes!"
Unlike most who have posted here, I am not turned off by the thought of anal, in fact I often crave it, but I am not really into kissing, cuddling or being romantic with another man. I do not find men attractive, per se, and never give much thought to men I see on the street, etc. (the way I would if I saw an attractive woman walking by!)but when I am home, alone at my computer I get very turned on by viewing gay porn and watching two (or more!) men suck each others' cocks and fuck. I especially love close-ups of a big, hard cock in some guy's mouth or up some guy's ass and get excited by watching those cocks shoot cum onto the other guy.
As a boy I had some fleeting sexual experiences with other boys. In college I was sucked off under the partition in a toilet stall. After I came I hurriedly zipped up and ran off. Now I wish I'd had the chance to return the favor.
For me it is not that I view sucking another guy's cock (or any other male to male sexual activity) as normal -- I view it as nasty, kinky, forbidden -- and that's what makes it so hot.
I have given much thought to finding some other middle aged guy (in good shape, like me, BTW) to fool around with and have more than once placed an ad on craig's list, exchanged e-mails with guys I've met but always got scared off when a meeting was imminent. Perhaps I just want to keep my urges a fantasy. Perhaps once I start dating women again I will lose these urges. But I don't think so. They were very much with me when I was married and my beautiful wife indulged me by strapping on a dildo many a time. During our "Extra curricular sessions" as we called them, I would ask her, "Does it turn you on that you have a husband who likes to suck cock? Does it turn you on that I love to be fucked by a big hard cock?" To which she would always reply, "Oh yes!"