Ok, I know it's wrong but I can't help it and it's taking over my life. After EVERY SINGLE meal or bit of food that enters my system, i throw back up agen!
It all started when i saw my brothers girlfriend doing it, and i asked why and she sed it makes her skinnier, at the time i was 11 nearli 12 and i tried it and yeah it made me feel beta.
its ruining my life though because me and my family have been going out for meals because my mums got cancer and we all need to support her, so we been making the best of whats left of her life, and i need to keep going to toilet on the sly after i eat, then i throw it all back up. ive got the most wonderful boyfriend in the world who caught me doing it and sed if i dont stop then he's gonna tell someone, but he dont know how hard it is. i feel like im alone.
i wanna stop for my mum, but its so hard.
please can someone help me :( x
I do certainly recommend seeking psychological help. You will notice that I did not say psychiatric help; that is because I believe it is much more important to see a psychologist who can not perscribe drugs first as they are force then to deal with the actual issues that are causing your self-destructive behavior than a psychiatrist who will begin by throwing medications at you until one begins to help and only then start in earnist to work on the underling condition.
Keep in the back of your head additionally though that bulliemia is a very inneffective way of losing weight. The fat cells go into starvation mode and become more permiable to caloric intake. They will desprately cling to the minimal food intake and store everything that they can that is not immediately needed for survival as fat.
Additionally, consider that long term vomiting will cause your teeth to rot and the malnutrition will cause them to fall out. Which do you think is more attractive to men: a girl who is pretty and somewhat plump, or an emaciated girl with no teeth?
Find help, tell others that you need help, and remember that it is not your fault. Anyone going through what your are needs help in dealing. Those who do not admit that they are having trouble under such circumstances are merely fooling themselves.
Good luck!
i told my boyfriends mum coz shes a nurse and she put me through to a phscolygist and i am getting medical treatment now.
i am fed on the drip sometimes and when they first saw me i was immidatley rushed to hospital with all sorts in me lol.
i weighed 4 stone 3 and i didn't know how ill i was.
the doctors told me that it is a desease that will stay with me for the rest of my life, but to all you people out there helping me, you have changed my life around, and im very, very grateful.
Now all my mind is focused on my Mum and hoping, that if she's as strong as her little girl, she will pull through too.
Thank You x
stop it before u become a black hole and dissappear.