I love guys but not in the usual way that a girl is meant to love guys. I admire them so deeply, I am more interested in them scientifically than anything else... Its hard to explain, but I'm very fascinated by how they are different from women in all ways. It's comparable to studying an exotic animal, thats not to say they are unrefined or whatever, in fact I wish I were a guy myself, and often dream about it. I'm not transgender though, I would just love to be a real boy. I do find them superior in most every way, and I'm quite intimidated by them. I get extremely nervous by most of them, though I'm not really attracted to them romantically/sexually. IIN to love guys in this way?