I love guys but not in the usual way that a girl is meant to love guys. I admire them so deeply, I am more interested in them scientifically than anything else... Its hard to explain, but I'm very fascinated by how they are different from women in all ways. It's comparable to studying an exotic animal, thats not to say they are unrefined or whatever, in fact I wish I were a guy myself, and often dream about it. I'm not transgender though, I would just love to be a real boy. I do find them superior in most every way, and I'm quite intimidated by them. I get extremely nervous by most of them, though I'm not really attracted to them romantically/sexually. IIN to love guys in this way?

=>
pinocchio?
Also, many transmen undergo hormone therapy so that they're hormonally identical to cis men and/or surgery so that they have penises. Hormone therapy for transmen can shrink breasts (though some men choose to have reduction surgery as well), broadens shoulders, deepens the voice, increases muscle mass, stops menstruation (in men with vaginas), and causes facial hair growth. In these ways, transmen who undergo hormone therapy are anatomically very similar to cisgender men.
I don't think that transmen think "I would like to be a transman", either. From what I've read, it seems like they think "I would like to be a man/boy", like you do. Of course, it's not my job to tell you what your gender identity should be, and I'm not trying to do that, but I hope that this clears up some misconceptions about transmen.
And I think when you say "real man", you mean "cisgender man", but you should know that if you refer to cisgender men as "real men", some people will find that hurtful and offensive (especially transgender people).