Want to be mistreated during sex

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I'm 20 years old. I don't know why-I was raised in a decent family, almost never watched overly violent movies or anything- but I've always wanted to to experience a beating during sex-nothing turns me on more that imagining myself tied to something with my partner whipping or beating me, putting me down, and totally mistreating me before he has brutal sex with me, almost rapes me, actually. I'm pretty sure that this isn't totally normal, and I've never even dared tell any of my boyfriends about this cuz I was sure they'd think I was nuts... I didn't want to scare them off. But because of this I'm never totally satisfied with sex, no matter how great it is... What do I do? How do you think my bf would react to a confession like this one?? Every time we have sex I feel pushed a little further towards my limit, I can't take this much longer, I just NEED to fulfill this desire of mine, no matter how strange it might be. But how do I make him understand? And do it? This is a hard one. HELP. Normal and intelligent comments will be greatly appreciated, I need all the help I can get. Thanks.