Everyday when I walk home from the bus stop, I have to cross the road to get to my house.
Each and every day, I tell myself I want to stand in the exact center of the street (the yellow lines)
And I do.
Some days I tell myself that I want to jump in front of a car..
But I never have the guts to.
I really want to hurt myself for some reason...
normal? not normal?
Please be careful, because something could happen and if it does, there's not turning back.
Oh, and don't hurt yourself. It's a strong feeling, but once you start, it's hard to stop because you don't see why you should. If you ever need dissuading, just take a look at the scars people have from long term self-harm addiction. I'm trying again. I decided to get myself the hell outta this rut. Music helped me - specifically Elliott Smith. I was reading a book on him and I just thought "this guy was so bloody talented and amazing. Look at what he achieved. You have to at least try!"
not for any aparent reason
i guess just because i think it'll be a relief maybe or i think it'll be easier
but don't mate just stay strong fight the urge ok thinks always get better and imagin everything you'll miss out on if you do
the weirdest thing is non of us on this site will ever know if you have jumped because you may just never reply lol
sometimes i feel the exact same way.
you need to look for something that can make you happy, and stick with it. i'm not the best advice giver but i know how you feel.
mate take up a fetish u will soon lose that lust to try and kill yourself but then there is that other thing bout having to hide it coz its different ... simple let em know that u dont cair. .
pain is a way for some people to feel alive but u dont have the guts to jump in front of a car coz u dont wana die u hust want the adrenalin go get in to boxxing maby that'ill help