ok i really love this girl shes amazing in everyway and i loved her since seventh grade.im a freshman now 15 yrs old. i still love her alot.we are still extremly close but she doesnt like me the way i like her. and i sent her all these really deep things.example...this is a poem in the quotes then i responded to it...
"girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree The boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they get the rotten apples from the ground that arent as good, but easy. So the apples up top think something wrong with them when in reality they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree."
(then i gave it back to her with a response)
I might have climbed half way up the tree and made alotta mistakes doing so
I grabbed every rotten apple I saw because they were the easiest to get
But they made me sick
And everytime Id grab one the branch would break and Id fall
Then i realized, even though I knew it already, these apples are no good and the only one that would make me feel good is at the top
Your that apple, all the way at the top, the best one there
And im willing to climb and fall a million times in order to get to the tippy top of that tree and have that one apple
...it effected her alittle but not the way i thought it would and i sent her so many other things to show her how much i lover and it doesnt do anything... and the thing is the way she acts towards me is like she likes me but she says she doesnt UGH why do girls f**k with your head so much...and this has happened b4 this too and now i just feel like giving up
2 of my freinds that i explained this to said its because it was the way i was brought up to be...my parents always told me to show the way i feel and show that you care...
they said im too far ahead...that like im into the serious stuff bc of the way i am and everyone else just wants to have fun no seriousness attached
am i wrong for this???
what should i do
advice for future: dont become bestfriends with a girl and then try to have an intimate relationship. that doesn't work
-crank dat