Alright, when I was a young kid in elementary school I would sometimes here my name being whispered. When I looked around though, no one would be trying to get my attention or anything. I told my mom and she said I probably just misheard something. So life went on. I had an imaginary friend around that time, but I knew she was imaginary. However, her sole purpose was to have little mundane competitions with me. Like, 'who can make it into the living room the fastest'. The game was, if I ever lost she would kill me.
Ah-hem anyway at one point I grew out of that. But now other things are happening. It started out small. I would always have two opinions on /everything/. Only two. And they both followed very different ways of thinking. Through the years these two ways of thinking split apart more and more, and now it's like I have two seperate minds. One is fairly 'normal', is a bit of a pessimist in most situation yet sees the beauty in everything and wants to live a simple and conservative life. The other is a lot darker, has fantasies of killing people, wants to live life the way it pleases and is pretty optimistic about things. They never really conversed with each other... just went back and forth from the drivers seat. I like both of them, because well both of them are me. But today was the weirdest thing - on my way home I actually had a conversation between them. Out loud - I was alone, no one could here. I was both of them, talking to myself, but at the same time two different people if that makes sense.
What is this becoming? I don't feel it's serious enough to see a doctor, I mean, it's just me...
u got split personality disorder mate...
maybe ocd too
the other personality is the master(the darker one) and thats the ocd implementing personality
the other softer pessimist thats u actually is the slave
better goto a doctor...ppl with this shit usually lose their minds in early 50s
seriousl,u should consult a psychologist or someone for analysing this shit
But, besides, I don't want to get rid of either of them. I need both of them to be 'balanced'. The only thing the 'normal' one has going is the relative normalcy. But that one is pretty mean and rude and I feel like shit when I am her. The 'bad' one is happy and nice to people. The only thing with that one is I have the urges to brutally maim people.
@ thundercat: You're a really stupid person, arn't you?
I think it's relatively normal, but it shouldn't be so severe. I've thought about myself having a "listening" part and a "thinking" part. One part listens and judges, and the other does the thinking and actions.
Sound familiar at all?