He's used you as a cushion while bailing his marriage. He has no commitment to you. Whatever feelings you have for him are not reciprocated. Don't be a fool.
Hold your head high, swallow your unrequited passion, and dump this sorry-assed user, loser and abuser.
You are 43. Not 13. You're a big girl. Don't waste any more of your precious time or dignity on him.
PS - its not that you are incapable - he's just blaming you - you are attracting the wrong guys. See a counsellor about it. But dump this trashy guy fast ...
Hold your head high, swallow your unrequited passion, and dump this sorry-assed user, loser and abuser.
You are 43. Not 13. You're a big girl. Don't waste any more of your precious time or dignity on him.