Ever been in that situation where you and your cousin are close in age, you grow up together, and your relationship is 100% normal in terms of how cousins should be, then when you are both 21 she suddenly thins out, fills out, and gets really hott. I have the greatest desire to see my cousin naked because she has such a perfect body. It is not normal at all I am sure, and I will probably never act out on that, but can't help but undress her with my eyes when I see her, what makes it worse is she likes to sit on my lap for some unknown reason, always has, I have to throw her off so she doesn't feel the boner, God I need to find her doppleganger like, right now.
Thank you stephenwb that was very inciteful and an intelligent response and makes me feel a bit better about the situation.
The idea is for me to find her Doppleganger, and for her to never find out. It would be a way for me to get what I want without crossing boundaries, for instance like what stephenweb said, just in reverse. Imagine if Jessica Biel was your cousin, I would love to find that look a like and get what I want without ever crossing that line.