Holding in bowel movements for pleasure
I am a 42 year old male. I love holding in my bowel movements. I enjoy the pressure that it creates. It sometimes hurts but I love it and often smell the gas I pass at the same time. After a while, I obviously have to go but sometimes bits of poop come out and soil my boxer shorts. Again, this isn't a new thing. I have done this forever. I haven't even told my therapist about this but I believe this habit began as the result of a stressed childhood. Again, I love the pressure it puts on my body. Help me out.