17 years ago, i knocked a school bully out unconscious and bleeding
I was 14 back then and there was this bully who harassed me every single day. I don't remember the exact details as it's been almost 2 decades but I remember having my backpack stuffed with rotting garbage, being taunted for my ethnicity (I'm Asian), and being punched at for no reason.
One day I was completely fed up. I waited when there was nobody around after school, spotted the bully and grabbed whatever hard object I could find at the time. Note I attacked him directly this time as opposed to fighting in self defense. This object was a large container of deodorant in my backpack. I threw it at his head point blank.. and it was with so much force the container broke open. The bully's head was bleeding and he ran at me before collapsing to the ground.. and I ran like hell.
Nobody was nearby at the time so there were no witnesses.. I heard he was in the hospital for several days. I've shared this story with only a few close friends over the years and they believe I was lucky I didn't end up in jail. Well, over the 17 years since the incident, I've never been arrested or convicted of any crime. I went to college, got a decent career in Business, and recently got married.
Occasionally, I seem to mull over the notion that if I had gotten caught, my life would be so different today. Over the years, I still feel quite a bit of guilt over my bizarre overreaction even though the bully probably fully recovered and move on from the incident now. Is it normal?