"is it normal to see the big picture all the time?"
I once observed an education professor (extremely vain yet extremely naive to an amusing degree) return a well written research paper back to a student because it was missing some small insignificant element that the teacher felt should have been there. The student corrected the mistake but got the paper back a second time because it just wasn't 'enough'. On the big scope of things, why did it matter? What went through that teacher's head when she chose to send it back a second time? We are all burning up in the fires of time and will die. Did Jesus burn on a cross for my sins? Perhaps so and maybe Buddha did something too but what about the flying saucer that I watched floating only meters away from me... what about that? I know that something out there exists - we are billions - yet we are far from alone. Existing each day with a 'bigger picture' makes me ill sometimes - knowing something is a fact while the subject of UFO's and Aliens are so open to ridicule. What worsens the feeling is humans acting so self-important and immortal when we should all be humbly preparing to become part of an intergalactic neighborhood through international space exploration projects. Disclosure of the UFO cover-up may just humble a few million very stuck-up (because of race, title, gender, amount of cash, amount of education, whatever) people with or without "bibles" (from any religion) in hand. I was ready for the truth when, as a child, I stared at a beautiful flying saucer just above the treetops. Illuminated Colors rotated around an aperture near the bottom of this sleek, silent, metallic disc. I know that the truth is coming - I just wanna be here to see the smug faces turn to awe. Is there ANYBODY out there that feels like that? Is that NORMAL?