Advice for boyfriend with a small dick

I need some advice for having a boyfriend with a small dick. I’m 22 years old I’ve only had 2 serious boyfriends my first boyfriend was actually 2 years younger than me I started dating him when I graduated high school he was going to be a senior. Let’s just say he was gifted very gifted our first year dating he was just 17 my friends didn’t believe me how big he was when I said he compared to dicks in porn so I had him send me a picture measuring he was 8 1/2 and about as wide as my wrist. Me being this innocent little virgin I had no idea what to even do with a dick like that getting on top hurt and I was constantly holding him back and he said I had no idea what I was doing when sucking it having to use 2 hands holding it like a literal baseball bat and choking just on the head I was useless. We dated for a couple years and broke up I was heart broken of course. First thing I did was go out and get a dildo lol my boyfriend now has actually seen it and said “Jesus Christ why do you have a gigantic dildo” I lied and said I was young and dumb little does he know I thought that was normal lmao. Before my boyfriend now I sort of opened up the first year single I had 2 steady fuck buddies one after another both of them I had gone to high school with so I felt Comfortable enough to give them head. The other 2 guys I hooked up with were both pretty much 2 date max had sex a couple times and things fizzled out. All of those guys no where near my first boyfriends size but we’re definitely good size. Then came my boyfriend now I met him at my job I had a crush on him instantly things moved quickly hooking up right away I was in love. I was blind for the first week or two hanging out hooking up finally one night

Inbetween sex we decided to fool around in the shower I got in first waiting eagerly I heard him come in and I peaked out to let him in when I saw soft he had what was probably 2 inches it’s not a micro penis I’ve looked those up lol it’s much bigger but small for what I’ve seen not wanting to make him feel like shit we started kissing trying to get him hard as quick as possible lol i didn’t have much to grab onto could basically just pull on it until he was hard. Hard he’s decent probably a good 5 inches but skinny if I want to jerk him off while sucking it I need to open my index finger and my thumb using 3 fingers to jerk leaving enough room for me to suck. I know I probably sound like a slut by the way I talk but I just wanted to give great detail when I ride on top it feels good but slips out a lot I use to love morning sex on my side now I barely get the tip and need to shove my ass completely out into him. He thinks I’m just trying to be sexy when a put a finger In my butt but I just want to feel more. I love him but Idk what to do I actually crave big dick actually having to put in work just to jerk one off sucking on it or just getting fucked the feeling inside of me the things I would do to put my ex bfs dick on my boyfriend now. Am I alone here sorry for the graphic detail but can anyone help me out with some advice I don’t want to break his heart or make him feel like shit and I don’t exactly have the biggest boobs to be talking lol ass maybe but my chest looks like a guys.