Advice with my hair :)

I have 0 self confidence and my hair is always bothering me. I have a very massive forehead and what looks like alopecia traction alopecia. but I think it's just a very bad widows peak. one side I can cover and the other not and I've tried but I don't like a middle parting. I always had a middle parting but decided to start throwing it over one way which gave it volume. it took ages to train that way but it gave it so much volume and it looked really nice. idk what hairdressers do in terms of different cutting like they must've started cutting it as a side parting cause it's lost it's volume so I'm not sure how to have it cut.
I don't want a side fringe or fringe just yet. I am so scared to try something new cause when it's righ it's right. what I'm trying to say is I always have it cut them same sometimes I miss layers out tho but it always ends up sitting different and it bugs me.