All of my painting are disturbing

it sells? Ok thats not a problem thats money , its the buyers that have a problem. you just keep supplying them with the fucked up muck that sells, that your role. and double up those prices, tell them you have motivation issues that you are dealing with, invent a drug addiction your patrons will love that. if they think prices are too high tell them they are not to high they are too stingy with money.

it is normal. kudos to you for painting stuff out of the ordinary. I want to be a painter too.

Conventional drama series are weird as all hell. People seem to just love crime dramas. The gory details get the royal treatment. News media functions by the "if it bleeds, it leads" rule. Humans are odd! Look how popular Game of Thrones has been? Ha, normal. You're normal. Now, go sell this disturbing art! If it's in demand, by all means, take advantage of this sick, sick talent you have that reels in the viewers.

Just don't partake in real life whatever it is you produce as art. Keep it fiction.

Geez, what could be so sick?

After my time reading a ton of Greek mythology, nothing phases me in shock value. Humans are predictable.

To make a fortune, I ought to do the same thing you're doing. I'm daft for not pursuing this!

I think it's cool what you do, I was the same with poetry. Maybe if you find a gf and break up with her you can't be more sad and paint some more sadder bad as shit. Think Katty perry but as a painter. Or go to watchpeopledie.com for inspiration.