Am i evil? my little sister gives me a boner when she sits on my lap?
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I don't know WHAT to make of it. She's my half sister, and is 17. I'm five years older than her. We were very close when we were small, but I joined the military at 18, and we haven't seen each other almost at all since I joined. I did my four years, and got out. Now that I'm back home we see a lot of each other, and she's probably missing that closeness we had.
She REALLY grew up a lot since I went in, and is a beautiful girl, but I NEVER had any sick thoughts or intentions or anything like that. She's a very affectionate person and I like that about her, so for her its not a big deal to like hug and kiss me, then sit on my lap.
However... when she does that (sits on my lap), for SOME REASON, I almost immediately get a hard-on. At first, I just contributed the phenominon as a normal physical reation to her body weight/ pressure to THAT area. But, I get it almost every single time!!! I hope she doesn't notice it, but I'm not going to ask that question... and have the world's most akward conversation!!!
Then, this past weekend my Mom and Step-father took us to a cabana club thing, which was nice, with several pools, jacuzzi's, sauna's, etc... My sister and I were in swim clothes, and my mom called us out to go grab something to eat at one of the tables near the little outdoor grill/bar.
We got out, we were both soaking wet, and she was in a bikini and what not... and so I sat down, and she sat on my lap, and very quickly I got so hard I thought it might burst. I pretended that I had to use the bathroom, and almost literally ran away! In the bathroom, I could not get my erection to subside for like 10-15 minutes. I tried thinking about baseball and everything!!!
Everybody was totally normal when I got back, and just wanted to know if I was feeling well. I faked an upset stomach, and everything was cool. Then, after we ate and went back in the water I tried telling myself its just the pressure, and everything is fine, but then, I don't know if it was because I was trying to pych myself out, or what... but, when were back in the water, looking at her in her bikini gave me another embarassing boner! This is getting crazy!
Please don't misunderstand... I DO NOT have ANY desire to do ANYTHING with my sister!!! I really DON'T KNOW WHY this IS happening!!!
I don't know what's wrong with me!!! I don't think I'm a terrible person!?!?!?!? What is going on???
Is this normal????????
... at all????
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