Am i getting karma for being a bitch to my stalker?

hello, my name is caroline. i wasnn't sure what to caption this but heres the story your here to hear. when i was in kindergarten i met a really sweet little boy, our families became very close, and he became very dear to me. we grew up together. when we were around 9, his 15 year old brother killed himself. it was a tradgedy, yes, but thats not the story i'm here to tell. as time went on, it became increaslingly obvious that he had a bit of a crush on me, which became more or less an inside joke between our families and close friends. but things started to peak around junior year. he was very controlling, he had to know where i was at all times. we also lived a few houses across from me, so on several occasions he would stare at me through my window. i wasn't allowed to speak to guys (keep in mind, he wasn't my boyfriend) he was possesive, and kind of obsessive, and it started to creep me out. i told him that finals were coming up and i wanted to keep my head in the books, so i couldn't talk to him as much, which is actually a reasonable excuse for me (i am a kiss-ass bookworm who takes serious pride in her grades) and thats when the phone calls started. phone calls from my closest friends, telling me that he would call them at late hours of the night, sometimes high or drunk, screaming disgusting things at them about how they were terrible, ugly, mean, bitches (although he barely knew them) and he would talk about how he was going to kill himself over me. i cried, my friends cried, we were so scared. we told his parents, the counselor, and no one took it seriously, so he just continued to stalk me. he would watch me through my window most nights, and sometimes, when i wouldn't be home, he would call my mom and ask her where i was. luckly i have incredibly amazing, supportive parents, who were very concerned for my safety. so they told him he needed to stop, we really tried. for several months the harrasment, stalking, and obsessive behavior continued, until one day, i went to his house to speak with his family about it. this, was the night i was raped. i showed up at his house to speak with his parents, and he said they would be home in a few minutes. i grew increasingly uncomfortable until it happened (i will not go into detail because it disgusts me to this day) i told my parents, friends, and relatives everything, however, his parents said that it wasn't rape because we were both only 17 when it happened. i spoke to several shrinks, i couldn't eat, i lost 22 pounds, i did not sleep, and my grades dropped. finally one day, i snapped, i called him, and said the most disgusting things to him. i said things like "you ruined my fucking life" and "you are a psychopath!" i was crying so hard, i remember. i then proceeded to go onto social media and tell the whole story. several people told me it was wrong to make it public, but to me, it was worth it to ruin his reputation. now, i am 18 and will be attending fsu in august. however, he now has a variety of mental health issues. recently i have gone deaf in one ear, been told i need to undergo surgery to fix my breathing AND broke my toe. my friends have jokingly told me i'm receiving karma for all the rude things that i said to him that night that caused all those mental health issues. but the more and more i think about it i think... could i be getting karma for what i said to him? to this day, i still don't know if what i said to him was the cause of his mental health issues, but i do choose to take responsibility for it. so i'm taking to the internet to find out. do you guys think i'm getting karma for being a bitch to my stalker?

no!! stuff happens, its just a coincidence 4
yep, its karma 2
maybe a lil of both 0
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  • BlackCatsAreAwesome

    No such thing as karma plus it'd kinda be normal to do what you did after all what he did even if karma did exist.

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  • shuggy-chan

    Sometimes life likes to keep the bumps in the road coming.

    Im sorry for how a childhood friendship turned so nasty, to that point.

    But there isn't a direct correlation between the two.

    No need to try to misplace any "guilt" you feel towards someone that sexually assaulted you, that is a bunch of crap.

    You are 18, shit is speeding up fast for you. But advice i can give from someone a decade your senior.

    Just keep on keeping on. Just keep working hard on the task at hand.

    Weither its school, work, or yourself. Its a bit of a test of your will and determination trying to figure yourself out, your education and all that "fun" stuff when your still basically a baby still.

    Goodluck kid

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  • bfus

    There is no such thing as kharma.

    http://rationalwiki.org/wiki/Just_world_hypothesis

    If kharma was real, he'd be in prison and there would be consequences for all of the people who justified or played down him raping you, for prioritizing the rapist's wellbeing over his victim and not even looking out for you.

    It's very possible his mental health issues were around a long time before you made your exasperated cry for help, do not assume he's somehow a victim from you. It's good that you spoke out, and that there were apparently some negative social consequences for him. If he now believes that there are consequences for rape, you very likely have prevented other women from being raped by him in the future.

    Regardless, I recommend that you call the police, now.

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