Am i giving up my manhood?
It all started with one girl I knew from high school. I liked her but never had the courage to really approach her. We've been friends on facebook for years and I get notified whenever she posts something because I feel like I really get her, unlike other people who only pretend to. She's super kind and very beautiful. One day she shared a link to her OnlyFans page where she started sharing her more private content for a monthly subscription fee. It previewed a lot of semi-nude photos of her in various lingerie. I felt this was a great opportunity to support her financially because she seemed to be in a rough spot according to her facebook posts. She was working hard to provide great content and that money would also help her provide for her kids.
In those next few months I had never felt closer to someone in my entire life. I really fell deeply in love with her and I wasn't the only one. Soon I became part of a community that only wanted the best for her and loved the amazing content she was giving us. She would respond to every message I sent and she even remembers seeing me in class! I really felt like the luckiest man in the world.
Then one day I was talking to a friend at work and the subject of sex came up. He was telling me all kinds of stories about his past girlfriends and I heard her name get brought up in one of them. I could hardly believe their paths had crossed at one point after high school. I told him how I felt about her and that we're keeping in touch. He then assumed we had sex. I told him it wasn't like that and shared that I was subscribed to her OnlyFans.
He just started laughing like it was some kind of joke. I really didn't get what was so funny. He told me that none of that was real and that I should go out more and find someone. I didn't want to believe it, but he might be right. Is it all just a fantasy? Is it worth it to stay subscribed? I want to keep supporting her but I don't know anymore.