Am i just going through an age phase thing
IIN, for a near 40 year old, straight sexual, but now single because I have a crack habit that I can't shake off, but my fiancé felt let down and ashamed at my reactions in life, point me to my lap-top to watch and masturbation whilst watching guys doing stuff, that I'd normally cringe and turn off, but crack makes me want to suck her brothers cock than entertain her and what's worse, I don't hide it from her and said the next day I'll sort myself, I promisexpect my cock will be hers to do and use as she likes, but 2 crack pipes later, I'm online watching gay porn, masturbation and on gay chat lines where I can go live where he can watch me as I'm watching him ? Sickening that it's OK for her to perform oral on random strange men and I'm not allowed because I'd not be getting paid, but used and abused ?
So, what's on your minds folks, end my relationship with fiancé, or knock the cock sucking urge on its head and stop the crack binges ?