Am i normal, or am i strange?
Firstly, I suppose I should add a bit of background. I am rather young, though not so young that I am a fool. I used to have terrible depression, but have since been rid of it by regulating my emotions. (More on this below) I have become rather cold, but not unfeeling. I have great aspirations and perhaps some illusions of grandeur. I used to want to be a bad person, but have since dismissed that. (More on this below)
Emotions: I used to be an average child, disgregarding my constant need to read and my being easy to anger. I was hit with depression and was put in medication. The medication did not work, no matter what anyone else says. I still felt empty and bitter. Then I thought... I realized that most of my emotions were unneeded and/or fake. I simply played a part in the play when it was expected. I only had a few true emotions. Anger, disgust, sorrow, and the occasional flit of joy. I decided to continue playing the parts, but to not let my acting convince me that I actually felt that way. Since then I have academically excelled and achieved several things I would not of been able to otherwise. I started to examine people and their social patterns. I learned how to fit in in any situation. I went from the angry child to the person anyone could be friends with. I have goals now, goals that I can see are far off, but know aren't too far if given enough attention.
Villain Complex: Yes, I used to want to be a villain. A horrible person who would be remembered forever. I gave up this want not long after coming up with it. Instead, I came up with another want. A more feasible one. I wanted to change something large. I wanted to do something to where I would be remembered and glorified in the years to come. I would be willing to be hated and killed for what my goal is, if it meant my goal would be realized.
I have aspirations and illusions amid grandeur that may not be illusions. I have a minor God complex. People are a bother. The world doesn't care about us, as we are but insignificant in this cold, unfeeling universe. Nihilistic beliefs sound not too far off from my beliefs, if not for one major difference (which shall go unmentioned). I revel in my differences. I have started a group that some may call a cult, which has a number of folowers. I feel but three emotions, four if lust is counted.
After all this information, I ask you...
Am I normal?
If not, what is it that makes me strange?