Am i to blame?

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It was 1973 and my brother had moved in with me. Then the unthinkable happened. The girl I was seeing broke up with me. So I gave my brother my key to the apartment and took off hitchhiking to San Francisco. I was despondent.

After spending time in SF, I began to hitchhike back to Missouri. I was coming out of L.A. and met 2 girls hitchhiking. They asked if they could hitchhike with me. I said sure, why not?

We got a ride out of the city and headed east and on the 2nd or 3 ride, ended up with a couple of guys in a pickup truck. They took us to a camp where they were living and working on a construction project with quite a few other men. I didn't like this, and told the girls so. They thought it would be ok.

The one girl teamed up with the guy who had been driving the pickup truck. He was a nice looking guy and not the worst of the lot... but the other girl didn't fare so well. I heard a lot of fighting and screaming. I hid myself under a tarp and later when all was quiet, fell asleep.

They were sullen next morning when one of the men drove us back out to the highway and dropped us off.

We were picked up by a middle-aged man driving an 18-wheeler. He turned out to be not-so-nice, too.

We were nearing the state line, California to Nevada, and the trucker pulled over. "Weigh station up ahead. I can hide the girls but not you. Get out." I looked both those girls in the eyes and asked them quietly to abandon the trucker and stay with me.

They wouldn't. I never saw them again.

I'm sure they survived their ordeals and have lived to have some bad memories with the good. I have done the same. Some bad memories with the good.

Am I to blame for what happened that night in the California desert?

I don't want to think so, but I wept then, and it makes me feel bad, still. If I had told them in the first place that I hitchhike alone, maybe none of that would have happened.

But there is no going back and it's no use to have regrets that cannot produce any good thing.

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  • Embyr
    14 years ago

    No. Although it's admirable that you'd help these girls, they are also responsible for themselves and should have had the common sense to take the precautions necessary for protection. Being a girl myself, I would have been weary towards the people I was traveling with. I would at the very least carry a taser or what have you. Definitely a phone. Anything.

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  • Lysette
    14 years ago

    Chances are that if they were abused, your presence nearby saved them from worse. It is doubtful that anything happened at the camp or the other men would have accosted you, either threaten you for your quiet cooperation, or to run you off before they did anything.
    As for the trucker, all you could do was ask them to get off with you.
    This is exactly the sort of thing I trained so hard since I was 15 to earn black belts in Tae Kwon Do and Kung Fu.

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  • brian987987
    14 years ago

    wait how did you get internet

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  • tykeyman
    12 years ago

    What a boring fucking story

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  • groman
    13 years ago

    Embyr- it was 73 they didn't have cell phones or tastes back then, plus who hitchikes now a days. OP soo not ur fault

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Not your fault!

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  • nuckinfuts
    14 years ago

    But sad

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  • nuckinfuts
    14 years ago

    It's fine

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  • Vesperian
    14 years ago

    It's your fault kid.

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  • oceangirl16
    14 years ago

    wait, are you saying the girls were prostitutes then got kidnapped by a middle ages trucker on the boarder of California and Navada? Im confused... but sorry about your girlfriend man... bummer

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  • tommy81
    14 years ago

    No, you're not to blame for what happened and who knows if that exact situation at that exact place and time would have happened or not without your involvement. The fact is those girls were out there hitchhiking before you came along and would've eventually been picked up by someone with ulterior motives in mind other than simply giving them a ride. I'm sure it wasn't the first time nor was it the last. It's no secret that hitchhiking is dangerous. I've had a couple of bad hitchhiking experiences myself. They were nothing like your experience, but they still weren%%u2019t good. Yeah, there are some wackos out there. Perhaps you felt an obligation as a man to somehow protect the women from any harm even if they basically threw themselves in harm%%u2019s way. I'm not saying they deserved anything that happened to them, just that it's not unreasonable to expect a little common sense. A large group of strange men and an isolated camp site would not sound like a good idea if I were a woman hitchhiker. It wouldn't even be safe for a man. The fact that you wept for them and still feel bad 36 years later tells me you have a big heart and care an awful lot about people. It%%u2019s good to know there are still folks like that in the world. Forgive yourself; you probably couldn%%u2019t have done anything anyway. From what you wrote, it sounds like you were heavily outnumbered anyhow. Sometimes you can%%u2019t protect people from their own poor judgment.

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